October 31, 2013

Random Thoughts: Day 31

Day 31.

I made it!

I successfully wrote something, anything, in this space, every day this month. All 31 days of it.

It wasn't always profound. It wasn't always pretty. But the truth if it is, there is something in the showing up. There is something beautiful and important and I feel good about just being here.

And isn't that life? Is that not the way it works in our relationships? Our marriages? Friendships? With our children?

31 Days has been a month long analogy of my life. It was hard, and so many days I wanted to throw in the towel. Some days got more of me than others. Somedays I barely got by. But each and every day, I came. I wrote. I persevered.

I didn't give up because I knew that it wasn't about me or the words that I wrote or even if anyone was reading them. This was about being a part of something bigger than me. This was about a commitment I made to myself and to the Internet.

If I can't keep a promise to the Internet, then who can I keep a promise to? If I'm so easily willing to give up on this, what makes me think I won't give up on everything else in my life?

October is ending much differently than it started; much differently than I anticipated it to end. It's been a hard month, physically, emotionally, and spiritually. But I've learned a lot this month. About myself. About my blog. About my God.

To anyone and everyone who read any of these sometimes ridiculous and inane posts this month, thank you. Thank you for listening to me talk about nothing. Thank you for not unfollowing my blog because of that. Thank you for being a part of one of my most profound life lessons.

I said at the beginning of this all that my hope was to get into the habit of blogging more. Ironically, I will be participating in what a few of my sweet Twitter friends are calling #Noblogvember. For the month of November, I will be writing only with pen and paper in my journal as I decompress and unpack all that God has been showing me this month. I, of course, reserve the right to go against everything I just said and blog at any time should I feel moved to. But my official statement is that I'm taking the month off. You can still find me over at Keystone Ministry on Thursdays, and occasionally on Tuesdays at Hope Mommies.

I am tired. I feel completely incapable of stringing words together to form sentences let alone sentences to form paragraphs. 31 days broke me. It broke my brain and my words and God used it to break me for Him.

As we move into the month of Thanksgiving, I will be thankful for all God has shown me this month. But I will be even more thankful that 31 Days is over. I'll see you in December.

Anchored in Christ's Eternal Hope,


October 30, 2013

Random Thoughts: Day 30

I've always relied on words to figure things out. I still have a red folder from my teens full of some of the most pathetically emo poems and songs that you could ever read. It's embarrassingly depressing and laughable the way that I thought my world was ending every time a boy didn't like me back. 

Through out my life, I've often written letters that never made it into the mail. I write sometimes to sift through my thoughts and as a way to process what I'm feeling. I prefer letters, emails, and texts over conversation sometimes because it gives me a chance to more accurately convey what I want to say rather than my awkward verbal diarrhea. 

But sometimes, talking is what you need to do. Sometimes, the rawness of conversation over carefully constructed paragraph is just the linguistic dance that is necessary to lead you where you need to be. Sometimes, when you feel like you're talking in circles, it's really God circling a place in your heart that needs healing. 

Today's hurts are compounded by yesterdays and together they rip the scars of wounds from years and decades and lifetimes ago. 

It is often words that break us. Words spoken to us, or words that were not. The only true way to heal those wounds are with the words of the Healer. 

My son, pay attention to what I say; listen closely to my words.  Do not let them out of your sight, keep them within your heart;  for they are life to those who find them and health to a man's whole body.
Proverbs 4:20-22

O LORD my God, I called to you for help and you healed me.
Psalm 30:2

Surely he took up our infirmities and carried our sorrows, yet we considered him stricken by God, smitten by him, and afflicted.  But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was upon him, and by his wounds we are healed.
Isaiah 53:4-5

The LORD will protect him and preserve his life; he will bless him in the land and not surrender him to the desire of his foes.  The LORD will sustain him on his sickbed and restore him from his bed of illness.
Psalm 41:2-3

He said to her, "Daughter, your faith has healed you. Go in peace and be freed from your suffering."
Mark 5:34

He himself bore our sins in his body on the tree, so that we might die to sins and live for righteousness; by his wounds you have been healed.
1 Peter 2:24

It may be words that bruise us, but the Word is what bandages us. The promises of a God who loves you and heals you. Call to Him. Go to Him in prayer and in the Scripture. In the Words He left for you. For me. He will free you from suffering. 

But the centurion replied, “Lord, I am not worthy to have you come under my roof, but only say the word, and my servant will be healed.
Matthew 8:8

October 29, 2013

Random Thoughts: Day 29

I sat on the bathroom floor, tears streaming down my face. My hands were white knuckle clenched around my hopes and dreams as they faded away. The absence of a little pink line, and my world felt like it was falling apart all over again.

Each month that showed one line instead of two ached in the pit of my gut just like another loss. One more month without life in my womb felt like a lifetime. It had always been so easy before. Why was it taking so long this time? God took my son from me the day he was born. Didn't I deserve another baby? Didn't God owe me?

In those moments with no understanding of why and a desperate desire for a child, having a baby became a god in my life. I wanted a child more than I wanted Jesus. There were moments of weakness when the pain was so much that I might have given up Jesus just to have my son back. Lord, forgive me.

Read more HERE at Hope Mommies

October 28, 2013

Random Thoughts:Day 28

Every night I lay my daughter in bed, and she asks me to sing her a lullaby. Every night I sing her these words:

Oh, refuge of my hardened heart
Oh, fast persuing lover come
Angels dance around Your throne
My life by captured fare You own
Not silhouette of trodden faith
Nor death shall not my steps be guide
I'll pirouette upon mine grave
For in Your path I'll run and hide

Oh, gaze of love so melt my pride
That I may in your house but kneel
And in my brokenness to cry
Spring worship unto Thee
Spring worship unto Thee

It may not seem too kid friendly. I've tried singing other songs to her before, but she always asks for this one. She even sings along some nights. 

I love ending each night worshipping my God with my daughter. I love singing His praises with her at the end of the day.

I love her little heart and am humbled that God chose me to help guide her and point her to Him. I pray I can point her to Him. 

I pray that in my life she sees Him. 

October 27, 2013

Random Thoughts: Day 27

The gospel attracts & repels. If you're ALWAYS persecuted, you're probably a jerk. If you're NEVER persecuted, you're probably a coward. ~Tim Keller

In this age of the Internet, with the vast reach and sphere of influence that social media and blogging has given us, as Christians, we have a voice and a platform like never before. With hundreds, maybe thousands of people reading and listening to you every day, what are you saying?  

Are you speaking Truth? Are you speaking with love? Are you speaking the Truth in love? Even if it's hard and not palatable for everyone? 

Jesus said it would be hard. He said that this world would bring us trouble if we followed Him. It is hard, and this world does bring trouble. Following Jesus, truly  following him, does not come without cost. But think of how much your life cost Him! 

Next time you think that you shouldn't write that blog because it might be too harsh of a conviction, I urge you to remember this...

People thought Jesus was crazy. There were some that hated him and his followers. He didn't cover up the Gospel in cotton candy and fluff. 

If you never lose a friend or a follower, you're not doing it right. 

Write that blog. Send that tweet. Live proudly and speak boldly the Capital T Truth of the Gospel with no apologies. 

Yes, Scripture tells us to love and encourage one another, but it also tells us to correct and rebuke our fellow brothers and sisters. 

It can't all be Skittles and rainbows all the time. Sometimes we get things wrong, and we need a fellow sister to point out our sin or our misguided theology and point us back to Jesus. It should always all point back to Jesus. 

As I get ready to hit publish, I have a pit in my stomach because I know that this message won't be received well by all. The flesh that I wear wants so badly to be well liked and to never make waves. But Jesus didn't ask me to be popular. He didn't commission me to be well liked. He asked me to follow Him. 

He promised it would be hard, and it is. So I do today exactly what I am urging you to do. Write the hard things. Hit publish. Risk losing a follower or a friend. Because Jesus, and advancing The Kingdom is worth so much more than anyone on your news feed. 

October 25, 2013

Random Thoughts: Day 26

A little poetry for today's random thoughts.....

I don't want to write.

31 days is so hard.

Haikus are random.  

Random Thoughts: Day 25 {FMF Style}

It's Friday! So here we are, hundreds of us, bravely writing for five minutes flat on the same prompt given by Lisa-Jo Baker. "No extreme editing; no worrying about perfect grammar, font, or punctuation. Unscripted. Unedited. Real."

This is Five Minute Friday, where writing gets real.

For the month of October, Five Minute Friday posts will also be a part of the 31 Days series I'm linking up with over at The Nester. This is actually kind of perfect, because what better way to write random thoughts than to have a random word throw at you and try to write for five minutes whatever comes to your mind? FMF and Random Thoughts sounds like a match made in Heaven. 

Now, with out further ado...

This weeks prompt is: Together


I often wonder what Heaven will be like. How will our heavenly bodies appear? Will we be young? Old? Will our loved ones look the way we most remember them?

I wonder most though, what Noah will look like. Will he still be a baby, just as new as the day he was born? Will he have grown? Randy Alcorn says that when the dead are raised and the New Earth is ushered in, that maybe, parents who have suffered the death of an infant might have a chance to see their children grow. I don't know if that is true, but I do know that just the thought of that makes my heart want to burst at the seams! 

To think that I might have the chance to see my baby boy grow and learn, in the New Earth. Without pain or sadness. Oh, what a beautiful thought that is....

I look forward to the day that my whole family will be together. What a sweet reunion that will be. 


Five Minute Friday

October 24, 2013

Random Thoughts: Day 24

This is not where I thought I would be. 

Months of dreaming and planning led to a sudden change in circumstance and now it's all so much different than I had imagined. 

I thought that right now I would be Greenville bound. That I would be hugging sweet sisters and caffeinating myself in preparation for late nights with kindred spirits. Instead, I'm heading to the kitchen table for our daily lessons and fueling up with coffee so I can keep up with the kids and the laundry another day. 

I've been here before; this place of unsettled ground, wondering how you ever got here. 

I've been here under worse conditions. 

What I've learned in this dried up land of confusion and heartache, is that God shows up in the desert. He meets you in the dust and the dirt and He pours out Living water in the barren land. 

This may not be where I thought I would be. This may not be the way I had planned it. But maybe, just maybe, this is where I need to be. 

Maybe, just maybe, shattered dreams are a vehicle to something greater...a pathway to the land of milk and honey.

Maybe, just maybe, on the other side of the desert is the Promised Land. 

And no matter how long I wander, or how hot it gets, I know that He is with me every step of the way.

Live Mercy

On September 12, 2013, (in)courage partnered with Mercy House Kenya to give the 12 women, 12 babies, and the students and workers at Mercy House five huge gifts, all by Christmas, with the (in)Mercy project! 

It started with Phase 1: Drive Mercy. $8,750 was needed to buy a new van to help transport the moms and babies to appointments. This project was funded in just 15 days!

Phase 2: Learn Mercy, required $8,500 to provide new classroom additions so that the women at Mercy House can get an education and learn valuable skills to allow them to earn a living. This project was funded in 11 days!

Phase 3: Generate Mercy, aimed to raise $1,600 to give the home a new generator. Electricity is not always reliable in Kenya, and a generator provides the opportunity to perform every day functions when the power goes out, as much as a few times a week. The plan was to raise the money during the opening night dinner, tonight, at Allume, but fifteen people had other plans and gave generously to fund this project early!

Phase 4: Advance Mercy, asked for $2,150 to provide computers for the school that is located at Mercy House. As of October 22, this phase has been fully funded!

If you didn't add all of that up, over $21,000 has been raised in just over one month! We are in awe of the generosity that has been poured out to help women half way across the world! But we're not done yet! 

Phase 5: Live Mercy, is the biggest, and maybe the most important project of them all! $53,000 is needed to build a second home at Mercy House. This second home will allow space to help more girls, have more classrooms, activities, and offices. 

These girls are real. These babies are real. They may live across the globe, but they need your help. Mercy House takes pregnant women off the streets of Kenya and aids them in education, nutrition, housing, prenatal care, Bible study, counseling, and job skills to help give them a sustainable living.

Please consider being a part of (in)Mercy and joining us in changing lives an ocean away. You can go to Kenya and be a missionary in the lives of these sweet faces without ever having to leave your home. 

Join us on Twitter TONIGHT, and learn more about this project! Follow the hashtag #inMercy, as well as Lisa Jo Baker, Kristen Welch, and Mercy House Kenya.

We drove mercy, learned mercy, generated mercy, and advanced mercy. Now, it's time to LIVE Mercy

Will you join us?

October 23, 2013

Random Thoughts:Day 23

Some days are made for yoga pants and fuzzy socks.

Some days are made for warm chocolate cookies and hot cocoa. 

Some days are made for crawling back into bed. After schoolwork and lunch and dishes, snuggling under the comforter with a sleeping babe just seems right. 

Some days are made for popcorn and a movie. Curling up on the couch with little bodies watching their favorite film for the three hundredth time. 

Some days are made for tickles and pillow fights; making messes and memories. 

The days made for this are the days of motherhood. One day you'll wake up and those little people will be grown. You'll never look back and wish that you'd worked more and played less. You'll never wish your house had been cleaner or your days had been shorter. 

Live and love with wreckless abandon. 

October 22, 2013

Random Thoughts: Day 22

It’s been a little over three years since my son was stillborn. In those three years, I have been blessed to be able to see Hope Mommies grow from a rebellion against the mainstream label of “Angel Mom” into a beautiful ministry serving hundreds of women grieving their children.
I think back to the first time I ever heard the term “Hope Mom”, or the day that ten of us sat by the fireplace on a cool winter evening, feeling for the first time in a long time like we weren't out of place. It was easy just to be, without the fear of making someone uncomfortable by speaking your babies name. It was ok to cry. It was ok to laugh. And we did a lot of both.
Working with Hope Mommies has been a wonderful opportunity for me. It blesses me to be able to use my pain and my love for my son to hold the hand of others who are walking a similar road. Behind the scenes, there is a team of amazing women who give tirelessly to this ministry day in and day out. They give their time, their hearts, and their tears.
Each baby matters to us. Every time we hear of a new Hope Mom, we cry together. We pray. We hurt. Each and every story we hear touches us. We mourn with you and desire to bring Hope into your grief. The Hope that only Christ can give.
Read more over at Hope Mommies

October 21, 2013

Random Thoughts: Day 21

Day 21. Only 10 more to go!

Today's random thoughts:

Sometimes it sounds like my baby speaks in Glossolalia.

Eating donuts for two meals in a row is sure to give you blood sugar issues.

I like doughnuts enough to include them in my blog two days in a row. 

31 days has made my brain feel squishy.

My husbands sweatshirts are way more comfortable than mine.

I don't mind washing clothes, but I hate folding them.

Sometimes I go to bed at night, excited that I get to drink coffee when I wake up.

My fantasy friends group is Andy Cohen, Anderson Cooper, and Kelly Ripa. 

I am a firm believer in the Oxford comma. 

Vanessa is awesome.


October 20, 2013

Random Thoughts: Day 20

I'm posting this from my phone, and I'm too lazy to turn on my computer right now, so I apologize if the 31 days photo is gigantic.  

Well, here ate some random thoughts for the day: 

If it's from Starbucks, it should have whipped cream on it. Period. 

I have no idea how to properly drive in a roundabout and am convinced of certain death every time I encounter one. 

Doughnuts are one of my love languages.

I think I want to eat pizza tomorrow. 

Everything tastes better with cheese on it. 

I'm hungry. Could you tell? 

I wish I took more time to read. I have a whole que of books I want to read, but never do. 

I really want a new tattoo. I have it all planned out. I would tell you, but then I'd have to kill you. 

Why do babies throw stuff? Like, all the time? And then laugh. It's not fun, and I don't like picking it all up. 

31 days is hard. Really. Stinkin. Hard. 

How's that for random? 

October 19, 2013

Random Thoughts: Day 19

We're more than half way through this torturous escapade called 31 Days, and I have to admit that each day it gets harder and harder. My random may become even more random, and my posts shorter. At this point in the game, I kind of want to die. My brain feels broken and I just have no more words left in me.

Since it's the weekend, I figured that I would share with you a few of my favorite things from around the internet this week. I hope you enjoy them as much as I did.

Off of her new album, Hurricane, Natalie Grant will get you out of your seat and dancing to this new song that is a turn it up loud, dancing in the kitchen, sing along anthem!

A good word from a dear friend, brave enough to tackle tough issues of faith, and not just write a bunch of cotton candy fluff. If you're looking to be challenged in your walk, THIS is the blog for you!

and last but not least...

Gwendolyn lived for only a short time, but her legacy blessed families in their darkest hours. Help celebrate her 3rd birthday by giving the gift of hope, and get a FREE gift!

Have a great weekend!

October 18, 2013

Random Thoughts: Day 18 {FMF Style}

It's Friday! So here we are, hundreds of us, bravely writing for five minutes flat on the same prompt given by Lisa-Jo Baker. "No extreme editing; no worrying about perfect grammar, font, or punctuation. Unscripted. Unedited. Real."

This is Five Minute Friday, where writing gets real.

For the month of October, Five Minute Friday posts will also be a part of the 31 Days series I'm linking up with over at The Nester. This is actually kind of perfect, because what better way to write random thoughts than to have a random word throw at you and try to write for five minutes whatever comes to your mind? FMF and Random Thoughts sounds like a match made in Heaven. 

Now, with out further ado...

This weeks prompt is: Laundry


The baskets, overflowing with clean clothes sit in the corner. The fabric is surely wrinkled now, and it will probably all have to be washed again. It's been sitting there for more than a day, staring at me. I just haven't had the energy or the initiative to do anything about it.

I dug through the piles to find clean socks and fresh undergarments. I wrestled out an old t-shirt and my favorite sweatpants, broken in perfectly to my body after four years of wear. Then I pushed the baskets back and sighed as I thought to myself, "Maybe tomorrow."

Maybe tomorrow I'll get to the laundry. Maybe tomorrow I'll do more than change into clean sweats. Maybe tomorrow I'll go to the store, cook dinner, live life.

But today? Today my heart hurts and I lay bleeding and broken before my God. Today, I cry out in my lack of understanding and my anger and my frustration. Today, I can barely muster the energy to move from bed to couch and back again because when you are slayed by ones you love, the cuts bleed bright red and they ache like death.

So today, I run and rest in Him. Today, I know the He will never let me down even when everyone else does. Today, I lay in bed wrapped in chenille and Grace. And tomorrow, I'll get to the laundry.

Five Minute Friday

October 17, 2013

Random Thoughts: Day 17

I thought It was no big deal. 

"What's one more thing?" I asked myself. 

One more thing and then one more thing. And what seemed like a small commitment suddenly grew into a giant monster. 

As responsibilities and commitments stacked higher and higher, I began to  get buried underneath it all, and now? Now I can't get out from under it. 

With the best of intentions and a sincere heart, I just wanted to help, serve, and encourage a community (or two, or three) of women. But the truth is, I over committed and took too much on and I can't properly give anyone what they need and deserve when I'm stretched so thin. What started as a hobby, something to feed me and keep me healthy, has grown into a source of stress and taken over my life. 

Read more over at Keystone Ministry.  

October 16, 2013

Random Thoughts: Day 16

I always want to know what products or things my friends are currently into. It helps point me toward trying new things and I always feel better making a purchase with a recommendation.

I thought I would share a few of my favorite things that I am loving right now. 

I'm pretty much obsessed with this. On salads, in scrambled eggs, in biscuit dough....it's sweet and creamy with just enough stinky, and it is sure to transform a tired old dish. 

Disney cards by Hallmark

Are these not just too stinking cute? They have them for all occasions and I just adore them. They are sweet and timeless and the perfect card for a wedding, anniversary, or just to say "I love you".

This yoga DVD is so much fun! I love listening to Bethenny's humor, and since it's broken up into three 15 minute sections, it's easy to do whatever you can. Something is always better than nothing, so whether I've got 15, 30, or 45 minutes, I can get a little activity in. It's challenging, and you definitely feel it the next day, but you won't get too sweaty, so there's usually no need to shower after, which is huge for me! If I have 30 minutes to workout, I have 30 minutes. Not 30 minutes plus time to shower and get re-dressed. This DVD is awesome, and anyone at any fitness level can do it.

Did I mention that when you buy it on Amazon, you get a digital copy too, so you can start doing your workout immediately? How cool is that?

This candle burns long, smells my house up like I've been baking all day, and it's only a fraction of the price of a Yankee! And! It's available at Walgreens, so it's super convenient!

I love the whole Proactive Plus 3-step system, but this hydrator is by far my favorite step! It is thick and luxurious, moisturizers without making you greasy, and makes the best makeup primer. If you don't need the whole acne-fighting system, try this product. Your skin will thank you.

And last....

The Blacklist on NBC 

This is my favorite new show of the season. James Spader is a talented actor and brings just the right amount of crazy to the table. This show is a little Silence if the Lambs-ey, but minus the lotion and the chianti. It's suspenseful, funny, and pretty much everything I love in a tv show. Give a try. I'm sure you can find the first few episodes On Demand to catch up! 

Well, that's what I love right now! What do you love? What's one of your favorite things?  

October 15, 2013

Random Thoughts: Day 15 {Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day}

Today is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day. You may or may not know that my son, Noah, was stillborn in September 2010.

1 in 4 women will experience pregnancy loss in her lifetime. I am 1 in 4.

Each year, more than 24,000 babies are stillborn in the United States alone. 70 babies born silently each day. Countless more are miscarried.

Almost 25,000 more babies will die before their first birthday. In the United States. 

This is heartbreaking, and I know that for many, it is just too hard to talk about. But our culture can not continue to turn a blind eye because it hurts too much to face the reality of it. There are too many families out there wounded by the loss of their precious little ones. 

Help give these babies a voice. Say to the families missing their babies that you remember. That their baby is loved and so are they.

To honor all of the babies whose parents never got to know them, Hope Mommies is asking you to release balloons and post the pictures to Facebook, Twitter, and Instagram, with the hashtag #hopemommies. I would love it if you would join us. You can also sponsor a balloon for $5!

Another way to honor and remember is to join millions of people worldwide, in the wave of light. At 7pm, light a candle and let it burn for one hour. 

May I ask a favor of you?

Whether you release a balloon, light a candle, make a donation, or none of those, please take a moment out of your day to pray for all of the families who have suffered the loss of their baby. Pray that they would know the comfort of the Great Comforter. Pray that they would be washed with the peace that passes all understanding. Pray that they would run to God and not away from Him. Pray that babies would stop dying before they're even born. Pray that parents wouldn't have to pick out caskets instead of cribs. Lord, come quickly. 



To learn more about Noah, you can follow the Noah's Story link at the top of this page.

October 14, 2013

Random Thoughts: Day 14

"I'm so glad I live in a world where there are Octobers." 
~Anne of Green Gables 

October 13, 2013

Random Thoughts: Day 13

Sundays are for family around these parts. 

Sundays are for corporate worship, football games, and family naps. 

Sundays are for sweat pants and chenille socks. 

Sundays are for chocolate ice cream and Homeland on the couch with my best friend. 

Sundays are for time spent together. All of us.

What do Sundays look like at your house? 

October 12, 2013

Random Thoughts: Day 12

Today, I took a little road trip. I dropped the kiddos with a friend and hopped on the interstate. It was about an hour drive to my destination. Maybe a few minutes more. 

I only stayed about 30 minutes, and then headed back south to home. It was a quick trip. Just to hug friends who had lost a loved one. Just to tell them I loved them and that they were prayed for. 

As I looked out the car windows, at all of  Michigan's Autumn beauty, I couldn't help but see the glory of God in His creation. I couldn't help but think that if the earth is this beautiful now, how much more beautiful will the New Earth be? If this is all just a glimpse, a sneak peak of the beauty of Heaven...

How I long to be there, with my Savior. 

October 11, 2013

Random Thoughts: Day 11 {FMF Style}

It's Friday! So here we are, hundreds of us, bravely writing for five minutes flat on the same prompt given by Lisa-Jo Baker. "No extreme editing; no worrying about perfect grammar, font, or punctuation. Unscripted. Unedited. Real."

This is Five Minute Friday, where writing gets real.

For the month of October, Five Minute Friday posts will also be a part of the 31 Days series I'm linking up with over at The Nester. This is actually kind of perfect, because what better way to write random thoughts than to have a random word throw at you and try to write for five minutes whatever comes to your mind? FMF and Random Thoughts sounds like a match made in Heaven. 

Now, with out further ado...

This weeks prompt is: Ordinary


There's nothing wrong with ordinary. 

Extraordinary things happen in ordinary moments. 

It's true that there is no fault in typical and great things happen amongst the mundane. But I can't help but wonder if ordinary is where He has called us. If a life of comfort and security is really the life He asks us to live. 

I often wonder if as Christians, we've built walls between ourselves and the outside world. If I only listen to Christian music with my Christian friends in my suburban home where my walls are covered in Scripture art and we speak of giving grace and how dish washing is Kingdom work, I wonder, is this what Jesus meant when he said "Go and tell the world"? 

Encouragement is good. We need it in our lives, but at what point are we simply talking in circles with each other, cheering one another on for doing nothing? 

I've recently felt a burning passion deep inside of me to stop living ordinary and start living boldly for God! I prayed for awakening. I told God that I no longer wanted to live my life hugging the balance beam. He heard me and He's calling me out of my comfort zone in big ways. 

Sometimes I'm unsure and my footing is shaky, but I do not fear because I know that my God is big! I known that He has called us to do big, bold things for Him! So I'm stepping out of the ordinary and I'm risking it all for Him. 

Because while there's nothing wrong with ordinary, He's calling me to step out of it. 


Five Minute Friday

October 10, 2013

Random Thoughts: Day 10

Sometimes God gives you something to say. He lays a message, words on your heart. But the speaking is scary. The telling of a story is bravery that you aren't sure you have.

That bravery your looking for doesn't lie within you. It lies within Him.

Find your brave in Him.

Tell the story scared.

Feel the fear and do it anyway.




For I am the LORD, your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you.
Isaiah 41:13

Discipleship and Discipline

This beautiful face? She is a wild one.

Her heart is soft and sweet. She loves her mama like no one else. And she definitely knows what she wants. But let me tell you, she is a challenge for this mama to raise. I constantly struggle with learning how to shape and direct her without out squashing the wild and unique spirit that God gave her. I know that He formed her beautifully and perfectly, just the way He wanted her. But there are days when we butt heads and I just don't know how to raise her.

I've so often longed for a mentor to lend me wisdom, and a friend who understands how desperate I can feel some days. I've been searching for wise, Biblical counsel from other mothers who have walked the road of raising babes and know that it's hard and glorious and frustrating and rewarding and a big ole beautiful mess.

Sarah Mae and Sally Clarkson do just that in Discipleship and Discipline: Practical Parenting Help for the Desperate Mom.

Sally brings so much wisdom to the table. She acts as a virtual mentor and has so much to offer to encourage you. What I love about Sally is the way that she always points backs to God.

Sarah Mae is relatable and fun. Her sessions feel more like coffee with a girlfriend than a webinar. There were so many times during the videos that I was brought to tears by her words. I felt like she was speaking straight to me. Straight into my life.

Sarah and Sally are not perfect moms, and they don't try to be. They also don't try to make you perfect either. This course isn't about perfect. It's about doing your best, loving your kids, and giving grace all around knowing that mistakes will be made and some days will be better than others.

The Discipleship and Discipline e-course made me want to be a better mom. I walked away with useful parenting tips that I could actually implement into my life and a renewed desire to pursue my children's hearts.

If you have a wild one, or if you are trying to navigate the daily struggles of parenting, Sally Clarkson and Sarah Mae have your back. You can learn more about the Discipleship and Discipline e-course, as well as purchase it for $17.99 HERE. I know that you will be as encouraged by this course as I have been.

A free copy of the Discipleship and Discipline e-course was given for review. No compensation was given for this blog review. All words are original and the honest opinion of the author. 

October 9, 2013

An Open Letter To the Church Nursery

Dear Church Nursery, 

I want to start by thanking you. From the deepest parts of the bottom of my heart, I am unbelievably grateful for your service to parents. Loving and teaching my children each week while my husband and I attend church service is a priceless act. I know that you and your volunteers do hard work each and every week to offer this ministry. 

I am fully aware that for the past few years, this has been a very lopsided relationship. It's not you. It's me. I take and take and take each week when I drop my children at your door and bolt, but I never give back. I've gotten your emails, your phone calls, and I know that you want me to give a little back. I get it. I do. And I guess it's time that I explain why I don't reply. 

You see, I feel bad. I feel bad that I can't give in the way you want me to. You want me to stay and hang out. You want me to play games and rock babies; read a Bible story and sing songs. But I was up all night pacing my halls rocking a baby. I read stories every day and sing songs to restless bodies late into the nights. I spend hours every day on the floor playing games and building blocks. And on Sunday morning, this threadbare mama needs to sit in service and have an hour or so to get before God and worship and learn without little hands tugging at her pant legs. 

I know that when you need help, it seems like a simple solution to ask the parents who use your services to give a little in return. But when you're tired and weary from a long week of crying babies, sleepless nights, and pouring all you have into your babes,  you need that break to sit in service and participate in corporate worship. Can't we communicate the need for nursery workers to young singles? Or maybe the parents of grown children who haven't held a baby in a while? Isn't there someone else who can rock babies that hasn't been rocking babies every day for a half a decade? 

Please don't be upset with me. Please know how much I appreciate and adore you. And I promise, when I'm no longer changing diapers and singing lullabies at 3am after nightmares, I will come back to you. I will come back and give for all the times I took. 

So don't think I don't care or that you are unimportant to me. In fact, it's quite the opposite.  But this month, this year, this season of raising babies is a season in which I need to be attending church service. 

Thank you for allowing me to do that. I am a better mother because of it. 


A Mom of Littles

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